Hey there lovelies! How are you doing today? I am starting to feel a little bit worn out from the week, despite my relaxing weekend. These early mornings, long work days, and late nights are no joke. It’s just a season, at least that’s what I keep telling myself.
So remember when I told you about how I was so confused about my nutrition? I’ve done a lot of thinking, reading, and babbling (mostly to this girl, who has been an amazing support and awesome encouragement) and you know what? I didn’t find the answers. What I did realize is that it is ok to not be ok. It’s ok to not have the answers. This is a JOURNEY. People are at all different points in their journeys, and that is ok. We are all different. When it comes to nutrition we all have different ideas and what works for us. But even THAT is constantly changing. Did Paleo work for me? Sure. Does that mean it is the right thing for me for the rest of my life? Nope. As someone who is so open with my journey I felt like if I was going to “change” my theory of what was working it would somehow mean I was giving up on what I told you was working for me, that people would be upset or disappointed. But the thing is, this is my journey… and yes, I want to share it with you to inspire you on your own journey… but that doesn’t mean they will look the same. Ya know?
One thing Emily said to me really struck a chord with me… “People sometimes spend too much time trying to “rise above” their truth, instead of just owning it” – The truth is as someone who is obese… the scale still matters to me. I’m not talking about being within 5-10lbs of goal weight or just needing to “tone” … I mean I need to lose 50lbs. The scale matters to me. Does it define me? No. Not at all. But it is still important to me. It is a good tool to use to see progress. Not the only tool, but a good one. There is a huge movement, which I think is awesome, all about trashing the scale. and maybe when I am at a “healthy” weight I will be more inclined to do that. But for now, for me, the scale still matters. That is my truth and I’m owning it.
Obviously on this journey it is important to see progress. When I stop seeing progress I get frustrated. I know I am killing it in the workout department, but I just haven’t been seeing the strength gains I should be seeing. I also haven’t seen the weight loss I should be seeing. Not seeing progress in either of those areas is not good for my sanity! I know nutrition is the problem. After seeing Kassie’s success in hiring a fitness coach, I decided to look for a local coach of my own. I got a referral from a friend for a guy who has been in the industry for a long time. I officially hired him yesterday! He took my measurements and we talked about my goals. Ultimately I want to lose weight and gain strength so I can get better at CrossFit. I want to be healthy. I want to be fit. I have a CrossFit competition coming up in September and I want to feel confident and rock it out. He is going to help me do that! He is writing my custom meal plan that I will be starting Monday. I’m excited! I’m ready to make some killer progress.
Do you have any truths you struggle with owning?